Hi, I'm Jessica and I'm a controlaholic. What... that's a thing? Apparently that is my thing. While I always knew that, yes, I like to have things go my way (don't most people), to the extent that this permeated my life and emotions I had no clue until recently.
It began with being asked to help with a 12 step group. Well, OK, but I don't have an addiction, so I felt that perhaps I would be out of place, but I would love to help and support as I could. Then I started going through our book.....and bam!
Written by a Christian that seemed to be reading my mind and coming from a place where I found myself all to often. I was definitely not out of place but right in the middle of things, mainly with the Lord opening my eyes to my heart and the sin disease I keep trying to run from and repress (instead of surrender)! It is hard, very hard looking at your junk that has been hidden for quite some time (and involved so many tears and fears), yet so so very liberating in allowing Christ to do the healing that I did not even know I needed so desperately!